Rainy Day PART 2

天冷、阴暗、沉闷;

下着雨,风也刮个不停;

藤还攀附着颓垣残壁,

每来一阵狂风,

枯叶附落纷纷,

天真是阴暗而沉闷。

我的生活寒冷、阴郁、沉闷;

下着雨,风也刮个不停;

我的思想还纠缠着消逝的往事,

大风里,我的青春希望相继熄灭,

天真是阴暗而沉闷。

安静吧,忧伤的心!

别再悔恨;乌云后面太阳依然辉煌灿烂;

你命运和大家的一样,

每个人一生都得逢上阴雨,

有些日子必然阴暗而沉闷。

The Rainiy Day~~

2day i read a poem??
not sure izzit a poem?
but it was written by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow..

it juz a normal poem..
it din hv Shakesphere tat kind of romance..
but the poem touch my heart deeply..
it sounds like this

The day is cold,and dark,and dreary;

It rains,and the wind is never weary;

The vine still clings to the moldering wall,

But at every gust the dead leaves fall,

And the day is dark and dreary.

My life is cold and dark and dreary;

It rains and the wind is never weary;

My though still cling to the moldering past,

But the hopes of youth fall thick in the blast,

And the days are dark and dreary.

Be still,sad heart!And cease repining;

Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;

Thy fate is the common fate of all,

Into each life some rain must fall,

Some days must be dark and dreary.




that's the end of it.. if u want the meaning.. er..
i think can find it out kua..
i find it out then post it ya..

Finally.. Make up my mind~~

finally..
i had made up my mind 2day..
start from this day..
i wanna pak pia..
eventhough is not like everyday study..
but at least muz pass all exam..
kenot fail..
if fail i will let many ppl disappointed..
i dun1 they 2 be disappinted..
so at least i listen in class.
try to do the tutorial question..
and go to class..
i know it is hard 4 me..
but never try never know..
may be i will become hardworking like last time b4 my mom pass away le..
haha..
may be la..

but at least i had make up my mind..
i will keep studying..
eventhough computer science is not my interest..
but at least i wanna get a BS Campbell Degree..
my target not A or wat..
at least i try my best..
haha..

from nw on..
my play time and study time muz be equal..
i will kampatei..
it's hard to change from lazy to a bit hardworking..
but it is not impossible rite??
haha..
so..
i will all my frends all the best..
no matter in Pg Tarc, Kampar Utar, Petaling Jaya Utar, any Universities, Overseas college and Universities, and KL TARc finally..

all the best ya..
i oso will try my best..
I DONT 1 FAIL!!!

I'm On9.. but wif desperate, hate, tired ....many more

i'm in KL..
after knowing the results..
i..
i..
so sad.. no mood..
left me..
alone go Kl..
everythings sucks..

becoz of some reasons..
i cant write it down in here..
if not later got ppl see it..
ok??
but those who wanna know can ask me through msn..

juz really wanna express that..
i'm exhausted in KL..
i really miss my frends all..
dunno i can tahan until when??

haiz..
wish me luck ba every1..

Wont be able to on9 4 a vy long time!!!

sorry my frends all..
2morro i will be going KL..
i dunno when i can on9 since my new house din hv streamyx yet..
so really damn hate it..

no life without internet..
haha..

2day i owayz hate a bad dream..
when i think of 2morro the results will be out..
i worry 4 my classmates all..
haiz..
damn worry..

i miss Penang everythings..
if i can choose..
i rather stay at Penang more than going KL..
i miss Penang food..
i miss Penang environment..
i miss Penang ppl..

i miss my house..
i miss my bed..
i miss my best frends here..
i wanna join them..
but seems like no chance except Chinese new year..
die~~
i dun1 like this..
it seems like alone and damn lonely..
i hate lonely..

haiz..
if can choose..
i dun1 this 2 be happen..
but no choice..
this is life..

So..
every1..
i wont be able to on9 4 a vy long time..
but i think i will go to internet cafe to on9..
and post some post in blog..
but i guess wont that much le..
hate it..

thanks every1 in Penang that was helping me b4..
i love u guys..
chill..
see ya..
^^

TAO!!!


yesterday i went to Tao to eat buffet wif my family..

as my bro and my dad are birthday boy on May..

so they got 50% discount..

lol..


eat le many nice food..

grilled salmon la..

meatcrab wif cheese la..

sashimi la..

grilled unagi..

and many more..


lol.. i guess it will be vy be great if i can eat more..

coz yesterday i onli can eat a bit onli..

haha..

Wesak Day!~!




yesterday was Wesak Day..
i been going to 游行..
i never do it b4..
so b4 go to Kl..
wanna hv a try..
it was really... really..
tired..
haha..
may be i'm old ade..
~~|||

a frend of me drop down of tears..
coz wat..
coz the 花车 eh motor spoiled..
so made the car cant light on..

aiyo.. dunno how to console her oso..
see her so sad.. i juz wanna said..
even the car can't light..
but deeply in ur heart..
it was the best car..
beautiful and pretty..
at least i think so..
u all used 2 weeks to done it..
all the hardships that u all gone through..
wat is important is the process..
appreciate it..
results is not everything..
coz important is wat u think..
not others..
it was a successful car..
juz the old stupiak motor tat spoiled onli..
u all done it the best..
it was not a fail..
keep it up..
u are a gal that wont drop ur tears easily..
stay wat u were..
it was really a successful car that u made..
dun sad le..
be happy..
think simple.. be simple..
then we oso will be more happy..
^^
smile..
^^

KL FUSS!!!

yesterday i juz back from KL..
as i went there to buy my stuff b4 i move to there..

haiz..
when i think of no streamyx..
i die..
when think of transport to go eat..
i die..
when think of housemates..
i die..

so many things nid to worry..
so many things nid to be done..

i dun1 to leave Penang..
i wanna stay at Penang..
i love Penang..
i hate KL..

if  advance diploma can be taken in Penang..
tat would be damn great..

this saturday going to be stay at there..
now is the time i still can on9..
once stay there..
won't be on9 4 a vy long time..

this week the result oso will going to be out..
wish all my frends can pass it all..
oso including me..

last nite i oso being disappointed by a frend..
haiz..
now still in the process of disappointed..

To: Kumiko苦密 & 小蛋
       Thanks.. u 2 all the best frend that  i know in meetoto..
       小蛋,study smart 4 ur exam.. good luck and all the best.. if got chance we meet at Kl ba..
       苦密, going to be open new sem next week.. good luck ya..
       wont be able to on9.. u 2 muz remember me ya.. haha ^^


hmmm.. i dunno wanna say wat ko..
thanks every1 that helping me b4..
now we going to be separate..
hope u all hv a new good life..
^^

and all the things i nid to be worry..
hope will get it done quickly..
Fuss~~ Fuss~~

Forever Friends




"A friend walk in when the rest of the world walks out."  

Sometimes in life,  

You find a special friend;  

Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.  

Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop;  

Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.  

Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.  

This is Forever Friendship.  

when you're down,  

and the world seems dark and empty,  

Your forever friend lifts you up in spirits and makes that dark and empty world
suddenly seem bright and full.

Your forever friend gets you through the hard times,the sad times,and the confused times.  

If you turn and walk away,  

Your forever friend follows,  

If you lose you way,  

Your forever friend guides you and cheers you on.  

Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay.

To all my housemates and friends,

You all will always be a part of my life.

Thanks

爱你才躲开

一个人坐在电脑前,

对着冰冷的屏幕

打着一些看似自己的感受,
  
然后悄悄问自己:你写的是你吗?
  
看了,再看

才发觉

或许只是有自己的影子

却也不是真实的自己了




有时看着夜晚的天

就莫名的恐惧起来
  
感觉,好黑

黑的让人害怕

黑的象魔鬼狰狞的面孔

让人感觉压抑而逼真
  
有时真实的就是可怕的

就如爱情一样

在很多人的眼里

它是美丽的梦幻,是幸福的天堂。
  
但,真实的爱情是-----苦痛、折磨、包容、还有支持。


但是

当我打开音乐

听了所有的曲子时

我知道了
  
因为

我从旋律中感受到了悲伤

还有丝丝的冷漠。
  
丁点的希望

却似乎也含着泪水呜咽

没有流出的泪却有着最苦的味道

可以让你心碎的味道。
  
很难想象没有阳光的日子会是什么样的。

一个人,即使两个人互相搀扶着,没有阳光会有希望吗?






一首首播着那舒缓而忧伤的曲调,夜很深了,所有的朋友也都睡下了。
  
我又是独自一人坐在这电脑前,回味我的人生。在悲伤时,我爱上了网络。
  
我一直以为,逃开了这个真实的世界,我的灵魂就不至于哭泣,就不至于死亡。
  
但是,当我在这虚拟的空间里,毫无保留的倾诉之时,又有几人在听?
  
此刻,我是在寻求心灵的发泄,还是在一次又一次揭开自己的伤口?
  
究竟是网络拯救了我的灵魂,还是我的灵魂丢失在了网络里?




当我可笑的说着自己的故事,说着我是如何爱着,又如何分开时

我得到了什么?
  
真的如我所说:放下了
  
如果真的放的下了,为什么我还会深夜一个人坐在这里不停的感伤
  
如果真的放的下了,为什么我还要得到别人的肯定?


当我自己一步步将自己的爱情推向悬崖时,
  
我知道,终究会有一个人掉下去。
  
但在悬崖边缘,想起了,我们曾经相爱过。
  
看见他的身影,于是,我把手伸向了他。
  
却转身让自己跳了下去,

豪无保留的跳了下去。。。。。。





半空中风景很美,比爱情里更易让人迷失。
  
漂浮的感觉是自由----极大空间的自由。
  
抓不住任何东西,即使是救命的稻草也没有一根。
  
在不属于自己的空间里悬浮、游荡、坠落。
  
有时

爱就是一种伤害。。。。。。



残忍的人

选择伤害别人

善良的人

选择伤害自己


有些这样的时候 正是为了爱 才悄悄躲开
  
躲开的是身影 躲不开的却是那份 默默的情怀
  
月光下踌躇 睡梦里徘徊 感情上的事情 常常说不明白
  
不是不想爱 不是不去爱 怕只怕 爱也是种伤害 "

^^ AND T_T

yesterday..
i got ntg to do.. so went to Hong Kong Video bought a Japanese Drama called..
Edison no Haha..


i watch liao.. cry ka pua si.. haha..
really is a damn nice drama..
"Education is ppl 2nd mom"
quite correct 4 that.. hehe..
y there are that much y in this world??
dunno u all understand onot??
haha..
nevermind ba.. have a look at it.. then u will understand..

hmmm..
then i went to do my lens le..
really damn scary.. when the shop guy try to put the lens on my eyes..
haha..
sipek scary..
lol..

then han yeong call me to go to pasar malam juz nw..
haha.. wat a long pasar malam..
we 4 ma lak lou shop pasar malam oso almost 2 hours..
lol..
eat laksa, jagung, and man jiang kuih..
haha..
feel like i being young again the feeling..
so happy..

then went to Wei Zhong help..
the 1st time went to there help decorate the Wesak Day preparation..
happy is can help..
sad is my cap dirty liao..
T_T

haiz..
but at least can help ba..
haha..


lastly..
i get a photo from KY..
memorable 2 yeas photo ba..


good luck to all of my frends and even me..
live good.. appreciate wats beside u ba..

Happy Mommy Day...

1stly..
wanna tell all mom in this world..
Happy mOmmy Days..
u all are the best..
hehe
^^

2day wake up..
pray le my mom..
then ho..
dunno want to say wat 2 her..
haiz..
juz tell her that happy mommy day..
i love her so much..
but its 2 late..
haiz..
when she alive.. sure cant tell..
dunno y..
aiyo.. dun think le la..
past le..
muz become a good ginna..
make her proud..
hehe..
^^..
LOVE U>> MOM>>

Non-Topic Blog

hmmm...
basically i juz write this post to "waste" my time..
as i'm going to sleep..
but juz cant sleep..
12.30am still early 4 me..
lol..
2day finally settle my SSPN account things..
thanks 2 CA..
haha..
oh ya.. 2day when i sit on his motor..
suddenly feel scare..
haha..
dunno scare wat oso..
sweat..
may be got the accident memory b4..

then after back..
went 4 steamboat wif my family..
my dad said it was a birthday dinner 4 my bro..
then..
i went 4 IRONMAN..
personally..
i dislike ironman..
may be it is not cool enough..
haha.. but damn..
he is so rich..
the technology that makes me dope wif it..
cool..

oh ya..
planning to buy lens oso..
said about this 1 year ago..
now finally wanna buy it..
sweat..
so i went to England Optic to hv a free check on my eye..
omg...
my Shan Guang.. both oso about 100..
sweat..
so wat am i suppose to do..
shit..
haiz..
will think about it 2morro ba..
oh ya..
still nid to look around 4 a tree 2morro..
^^
nitez.. every1

BORED..~~ mom..

may be when we are bz everyday..
suddenly when we get free and holiday.. we feel..
BORED

2day saw my dad in pain wif his leg..
there is when some1 gets old their whole body functioning not well..
he even like crying coz of the pain..
OH MY GOD..

i dunno should i laugh a bit or kesian him..
lol..
everytime i hurt..
he say din hurt at all eh..
now he hurt a bit..
cry like a big baby..
sweat ka him

say tio my bro..
he is going to birth soon..
suppose going to buy a present 4 him..
but suddenly juz nw he kisiao..
may be coz chelsea wins..
sweat...
then luan scold me..
so now i oso tulan..
dun1 chap him liao..
lol..

oh god..
i'm so hungry now..
luckily i been train well in vj house b4..
now looks like going to been thinner than each day..
but my hair going to be thicker than each day..
=_=|||

haha..
juz invite chin aun go out 4 a breakfast wif me 2morro..
hope cn wake up la..
huhuhu~~~

hmmm..
when think of it well..
actually i got a lot of things not yet done..
such as my SSPN account..
collecting my hostel house key..
lol..
many more..
but i still lazy..
sweat..
y i'm so lazy???


oh ya..
important parts..
2day i sleep 14 hours..
sweat rite..
but important not this..
it is i dream of my mom..
oh gosh..
i haven't dream of my mom since... since...
since i oso 4got..
really a long time..
i'm happy that i dream of her..
love u mom..
mom pls bless my classmates all pass in the 3rd sem exam ya..
talk about my mom..
er.. she pass away 5 years ago.. this year is going to be the sixth..
i miss her so much..
still remember i dunno wat should i do without her..
everytime i back from school..
oso saw her cook the meal siap siap 4 me..
laksa and curry chicken my favourite..
when she pass away.. really dunno wat to do..
i back from school..
nobody to call mama..
nobody at home 2..
wat a lonely and quite house..
my mom cares me the most..
i still havent take care of her..
she ade left me..
i really damn sad..
i owayz think y??
y the death god choose my mom??
she suffer from cancer for 7 years..
eventhough i know died is a way for her to escape from the pain..
but sometimes i oso hope she will not died..
i willing the i'm the 1 who died..
i want to hug my mom..
i want to touch her hand..
i want..
sorry..
i think i cant write ade..
crying now.. tears dropping down automatically..
cant stop..
sorry..
love u 4ever mom..

T_T

yesterday and today got a bit sad..
coz my house de mic kenot use eh..
sad..

nid to buy a new mic..
got a new known frend intro me sonic gear..
not bad..

anyway..
inside the webgame
www.meetoto.com

there got a lot of ppl that can sing well..
and most important is they love sing..
haha..

whn i'm sad or angry..
i sure will sing..
juz love singing..

many frends of mine oso been attracted to this game..
haha..
cute game..
got time.. u all go hv a look and listen ba..
hehe..
my id name is shinn88..

see ya all there..


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